Fourth Entry

Hi,

- It seems that I've been thinking a lot about life lately and about music as well. One thing that has come to my mind is DJing. It used to be magnificent to think about, and that it'd open so many doors to my hobby/career. But it seems there's too many people fighting in the scene and too much competition, and not enough love for music.

- This has pushed me to further my knowledge in music production and stretch my skill, and to forget my dream of becoming a great DJ. I still have 2 cdj-200's and a mixer, something to always travel back into time and dream of a crowd in front of me, a nice bin of energy drinks and a hot chick dancing behind me.

- My social life has been not so good, it seems that people have started to cast me out of their lives. For some reason it seems throughout the year i've been losing a lot of friends. Gaining new ones, but then losing those from random stretches of non-socialization/people ignoring people.
I've figured this is because of the way that I talk, and how i speak my mind in fear of nothing, for strick curiosity of the response that is given by whom i am speaking to. Thus making them think differently about me etc.,

- It is sad, but This New Year I am making a plead to myself, and that is to forget all of those people, forget them and move on, If they're not interested in me, I shall show no interest in them.

I've realized all i have is my family, the few of them left, and that for the next day that my brother is home i'm going to try to make it the best. I love my brother more than anything, and the fact that he's 1000 miles away doesnt help.

I am infact, in need of friends/people that care. But with my ignorance and addiction to music production i doubt that will happen.

" I am addicted to a drug called music "


Happy New Years

Third Entry

- So it's been a week into Christmas Vacation, and I've had such a blast. I've been given the opportunity to get closer to Eric. I've met a lot of his friends and family, which is quite cool! My brother and I, have both been spending time together and it's been very uplifting. I've spent time with friends and even got to eat out at many restaurants including, KFC, Quaker steak and lube, a few others. I've gone to the movie theater with Kristy and Brooke and Sam. Christmas has been totally awesome. -

But for me it's over, starting today. I have 5 days to complete my senior project, and I have to dedicate my week to it...

It has to be done. -.-

Second Entry

- This week has been relatively "epic", I've been extremely busy. My brother came home from the military for 2 weeks, so I've been spending time with him. It's been nice so far, we've gone to the mall, pizzahut, the movies, we're heading ice-skating friday, hopefully! -

- About music, I've been practicing my electro-house routine, I've been studying music theory, My friend Eric gave me a CD full of older classic house tunes, and I've been trying to incorporate the old school flavor in with my practices. I've noticed you don't need a whole orchestra of sounds to get someone to move on a dancefloor. So my main focuses are the groove, the hat patterns, it has to flow!! The saw bass, and the square bass, and a nice softish kick. I learn a lot every practice so we're going to see where it takes me. -

First entry

I decided to start a blog to keep track of my musical advances, As well as my adventures, on a daily-weekly basis. I would like to start by giving a little bit of history on how I got into music, and where I am now.

- It all started around Christmas 2004-2005, My brother got a music mix CD called "this is trance!", and i was curious what trance was, ( we didn't have internet ). I badgered him to let me listen to it, and he repeated no, countless times. I gave it a day, and when he wasn't around i spun the CD for myself. I thought it was all very interesting... and I listened to it pretty much daily. Around that time, my brothers stereo fell off the table and landed on the CD, which left it in pieces.

- Not long after that, we had the internet, and I did a search on some of the songs. I downloaded a CD of random tracks from limewire, and listened to them at low volume during the night. This music touched my soul, and gave me dreams.

- It was then I decided I wanted to learn to compose Trance. During this time in the United States the hit trance song was Sandstorm by darude. I've been one of his fan's ever since and been an active user on his website to this day. Along some of those users lyed a guy named Sebastian Mutz. I asked him to help me learn to produce trance, and he started by telling me to buy a program called Magix Music Maker 12 Deluxe, around that time I was broke, and willing to do anything to get the money. Eventually i did, and my mom lent me the covering cost. As soon as i got home i was very confused, So about 6 months later, I got most of the structuring and vocabulary down, and figured I was ready to move on to a higher edge program. My sisters boyfriend, Kevin Jesensky gave me a cd that had a demo of FL Studio 5, and i didn't like it at first, but soon-after it was my main host.

- Around 2 months ago I decided it was time to get some input from professionals, So i started to talk and collaborate with different artists mostly in the genre's of hip hop and offering free production. I also sent 2 demo's to 2 different record labels, and got no reply, Hence. I was quite sad, and understood the difficulty and competition that's out there. But I didn't give up, I produced a trance song named Oceanic, which displayed my abilities up to that time. Sent it to a local record label owner, and got a reply that I had potential, which actually made me quite happy. Considering no-body ever replies, even if it was a negative response, I would of still been satisfied to get criticism/feedback. The record owner, Eric Cohen, wasn't a producer of Trance, but a producer of the genre known as House, which got me quite saddened. Briefly after I came to like House more than trance, and thought it was great to learn other genre's. So i did =].

- To this day Eric, is continuing to help me recognize my potential and develop my skills. He has become more than a guy that has connections to the music business or a guy that has great talent in what he does. He's become a great friend who i care about a lot, and will do anything for him if it comes down to it.

-I care not to be famous, or to be rich. But to possess a skill in which makes me and others happy.